Saturday, June 28, 2003 :::
 
So, Ex and I broke up over two years ago, and she still has not moved on appearantly:

"I am tired of listening to people complain about how bad their lives are when most of these people have pretty fucking nice lives, I wonder if they are ever thankfull or happy about anything in their lives. I am tired of some how stumbling on to nude pics of my ex on the web. Does this not make me whimper and shudder and wonder what the fucking hell was I thinking????? BUt hey it was a learning experience..i suppose."

I have never tried to hurt her or wish her any ill will, but she needs to get a FUCKING LIFE! I have heard stories of her having Matt-Hating parties and that she loves going on rants on how evil I am.

I mean what posesses a person to obsess like that? To hold a grudge.

WE BROKE UP! I didn't cheat on her. I never hit her. I didn't ever do anything malicious.
OK, I may have been less than honest on two issues.

People break up all the time, it's not that big of a deal. She claims that she loved me, but then why did she show up at my house screaming at me, telling me that it was over?

I moved away, extracated myself completely from her life, and still...

Aww... fuck the psycho bitch.

::: posted by Matthew at 3:05 PM --


 
Can't sleep.

It's 10 minutes till 6am and I'm wide awake.
Well, not really wide awake, I'm drowsy and tired and very worn out.
However, I am far from falling asleep.

Hmm... I see the sun coming up. Maybe I should just stay awake till sundown.
But I have things that need to be done that I'm not sure I'll be able to do extra tired.

I need to get some of those herbally things to help me sleep. Melatonin or something. Shimmy swears by them.

For now, I'm going to watch Monsters Inc. and let myself be reminded of Israel.

::: posted by Matthew at 6:00 AM --



Monday, June 23, 2003 :::
 
Sexsomnia:

http://www.canada.com//search/story.aspx?id=d11da3e8-acdd-4a60-b750-4447c006167d

I'm starting to believe that I shouldn't feel guilty.
However, I feel I must continue to try to prove my innocence.

The story came out yesterday.

On a related note...
Haven't been sleeping well at night. Been taking lots of naps, but still trying to sleep beneath the moon. Didn't sleep at all last night. Tired, but alert.

::: posted by Matthew at 8:41 AM --