Friday, April 04, 2003 :::
 

Mmmm... Ramen.

::: posted by Matthew at 12:45 AM --



Wednesday, April 02, 2003 :::
 
Signs of the end of the world:

Problem child
Much worse child

What a fucked up world we are living in.

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In other news:

I'm officially depressed.

::: posted by Matthew at 10:13 PM --


 
I'm on my way to becoming a pro.

I got in my business cards on Monday.
Here's what they look like:

I've been in contact with a couple potential models, and customers, but I don't have any plans as of yet. Ok, I don't even have the studio set up yet.
But, I did put an order to have my name and suite number stenciled onto the door of my studio. It's going to look very professional.

I'm excited.

::: posted by Matthew at 10:43 AM --



Sunday, March 30, 2003 :::
 
feel the depression sinking in and grabbing hold.
At night when it's quiet and the darkness surrounds me, I feel it in my bones. It's coming. The sadness, the lack of hope, the dismay.

I don't feel it during the day so much. Things are relatively good right now. Things are going well. I have no complaints. I should be happy.

And I am, sometimes, actually happy, or close to it.

But it's there, growing inside me, and there is nothing to do but wait, and to see if it blossoms into a springtime of dispair or withers to away and lets me live in peace and happiness.

::: posted by Matthew at 10:32 AM --